I find it easy consoling the pain of others, but when it comes to my own pain I am at a loss and feel alone. I have flash back moments of the first time I bathed our baby and its evident in the photo's I have of her. They way her body is evidently lifeless, the way her arms are draped at her sides, the way her legs are and it occurred to me how heartbreaking this photo is. I happened across ab photo similar belonging to an Angel family in New Zealand and I bare witness to the exact same image like that of our Vikki-Ann. I felt for them with every inch of my soul, my eyes filled with tears and I was taken back, feeling their grief as I too had felt their grief. I needed to focus my grief elsewhere so as not to let it engulf me or I would have been destined for despair again. Ive got a stupid sore finger that has worked wonders in diverting any sadness and so far its working. Touch wood.
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