Its always been hard for me to switch off my mind when I really need the sleep and the dreams to get my mind thinking creatively again. Too many thought processes are affecting the way I go about my daily life. The dreams I end up having are not the dreams I want to have, but are all the same pleasant. I look in the mirror and have slowly watched a part of me slipping away and its almost at a point where I cant get a grasp of it again. Im surrounded by people who not only chew up my creative reserves, but remind me of the reason why I want to leave and never look back. While some will say they could never walk away, Im almost at the point where I could do just that. Im not motivated at all with the living situation and it shows. I dont take care of myself anymore and a part of me doesnt care anymore. If I could find the switch to turn off the anger I would switch it in a heart beat. Does that mean I let everyone walk all over me and use me like a doormat? Im not sure, but its possible for it to happen. Help
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